the universe is in us

Today has been a really nice day.

Normally on a Sunday, Jack and Lucy take the dogs out and walk down to the shop to buy newspapers and I cook breakfast for us. Today, I went with them and we walked for miles before we had brunch.

We were then... intimate for the first time in a while. Like we've always been on a Sunday although more play than the standard punishments/rewards. We haven't been partaking in the BDSM side of our relationship - hell even the sex side - recently and honestly, it felt good. I know Jack and Lucy have been playing with each other, no need for either of them to be denied just because I've been going through things. I still don't have my whole sex drive back but it's starting to reawaken, and the depth of the groans Jack elicited when I spanked him definitely said it had been too long.

This afternoon, Lucy cooked us a melt-in-the-mouth roast lamb dinner and I baked Easter cupcakes - vanilla cupcakes with cream cheese frosting and mini eggs on top. I'm not one for taking photos of food (maybe I should if I'm going to talk about them) but Jack barely let them touch the counter before he pounced on them and the orgasmic noises he made, I think they went down well.

Baking is something else I haven't done much of recently. I missed it and it was nice to take the time to do something for me, for the sheer pleasure of doing it. And there was no lingering sense of guilt for enjoying myself.

I know 'mindfulness' and 'gratitude' are buzzwords right now but I'm realising there's a reason they're so popular - there's a lot too them I'm finding. They're hard work but like anything that's worth it, it's worth the work. I sound a little bit like a walking self-help book but trying to not express all the negativity is helping. Focusing on the positive, trying to spread kindness because you really do never know what other people are going through - and a kind word or a smile can make a real difference to someone else's day, or even their life.

A week without complaining
Day 1, take 4 - my mood has been better, and I have been better able to not whinge and complain. So, I've had a successful Day One... now onto Day Two!

My husband is a stupid, stubborn idiot. God knows I love him but he can infuriating!

We are very strong on routine around here, it helps with Lucy's mental health issues and our Sunday routine starts with Jack & Lucy walking the dogs down to the newsagents, buying the Sunday newspapers and walking back again. It's about a two and a half mile round trip and takes them around an hour. I have a slow morning then make us all a full English breakfast which we eat sitting around the breakfast bar, reading the papers. We can be very domestic at times.

Despite having been somewhat less mobile over the last week, Jack was very insistent that he did the walk this morning. He did acquiesce to using a cane at least and I know the dogs will protect him - they're properly trained and he's their alpha.

They'd been gone almost an hour and a half (and I was starting to worry) when I get a phone-call - it had taken them all that time to just GET to the shop and Jack was admitting he couldn't walk back so would I drive down and pick them up.

As tempting as it was to punish him, he was in pain and miserable. So his punishment was to be left alone downstairs while Lucy and I indulged in Sunday playtime. We were nice and loud too, made sure he knew exactly what he was missing out on. I must admit I was annoyed though; I had plans for him but they can wait.

(He will be getting a proper punishment when he's not in so much pain, mark my words. Worrying me like that!)

This afternoon, he was sulky, horny and still in pain so I was gentle on him. We did manage to keep to our usual Sunday afternoon routine though. The three of us played some Trivial Pursuit and I happily won, though it was a close game. Lucy is now cooking us a nice roast beef dinner and that combined with the raspberry chocolate brownies I made this afternoon... the house smells amazing.

I'm cuddled up with Jack who's relaxing after partaking some... shall we say herbal pain relief. I took a hit or two as well so we're nicely relaxed. Lucy will be joining us in a moment, dinner is basically done and it's almost time for Doctor Who.

I always forget how exhausting healing from a non-minor (I'm hesitant to use major because complications aside it was only a broken leg) injury is - throw in an operation and a lack of general mobility and I'm stil tiring really easily. I also have to keep reminding myself that it's only been two months and that there's still a while to go.

I'm being a very lazy Samantha today. I'm stretched out on the couch with a blanket and a cat.
Lucy is upstairs working on a 'Stargate fanfic for an exchange community on Dreamwidth' (I have no idea what that means past Stargate fanfic and Dreamwidth.)
Jack is watching the Huddersfield vs Newcastle game, doing a crossword and talking about cottage pie. Ooh I hope that means that's what's for dinner.

Thank you for all the anniversary wishes. Jack & I had a lovely meal out last nice. We went to one of our favourite restaurants - and probably for the last time since we're moving four hours away next week. Jack had a rib-eye steak. I had a welsh lamb steak. Much fun was had with the other anniversary gifts although I don't think I need to share the details. I mean, I could if you wanted to know about them but that could be TMI.

I do, however, want to at some point write about the BDSM aspect of our relationship and our roles and how it all works because - much like polyamory - it's so very misunderstood. And nothing like Fifty Shades Of Grey. Ugh!

But that's not for today.

I'm now on the second disc of season 1 of CSI: Las Vegas. I really had forgotten how much I love the show, and the characters, and all the inventive ways the writers have for killing people and all the red herrings and twists. Dubious science and investigation aside, it's still very entertaining. And I still have such a thing for Gil Grissom. Having discovered fandom online it makes me feel a little less dorkish for having a crush on a fictional character - apparently this is the norm rather than being as bizarre as my husband thinks it is.

I'm not finding an episode-by-episode chronology for CSI like I have for the MCU, the DC-TV and for Star Trek but I did find ( this lovely little chart ) which tracks where each show spins off so I can try and watch the show in some semblance of order. Because I'm a good little geek like that!

Do any of you use either trakt.tv or letterboxd? I've just signed up for them and I have no friends on them either than Jack and Lucy. I'm quantumcupcakes on Trakt and samanderson on Letterboxd.
And while I'm on the subject of social media - if you've got Twitter, I'm AWelshGeek so feel free to add me there too